**Cross posted to fatguyinalittlecoat.wordpress.com**
The one thing I promised myself when I got back into this, is that no matter what happened, I would be real about my experience. So, here’s me being real: I’m failing.
While sending the check off to Free Arts was a great feeling, hoping that our small, collective effort could help, the time lapse has yielded nothing good in terms of my weight. I feel my body changing, and it sickens me. Now, I’ve always been content with who I am, and have mostly been able to carry out my life with a decent dose of confidence, but I’m feeling the great effect of doing nothing.
I’d like to get started with the next fund raiser, and in fact, I’ve got a really unique, small foundation that I have some ties to that I think is very deserving. However, in order for me to pick up where I left off, I need to lose weight.
Yes, you read correctly. I gained weight back. I suck.
I have, however, started running again, though after a few weeks, I managed to find myself in a rut. I am not much of a morning person, so I’ve not been getting runs in. It’s getting way too hot out there…and I need to find away to get up early and get motivated again.
I’m not going to tell you how much I’ve gained back (it’s not much), but I need to get back to my magic number so we can start the dang fund raiser.
It’s time to stop failing.
John – As you know I’ve been on the weight loss journey myself – losing a ton of weight in the beginning and now losing .4 by .2 a week =)
However, I HATE the title of this blog. You are NOT failing – the fact that you are conscious of it, and wanting to do something about it means that you are NOT failing.
I think of weight loss in very small increments – like hour by hour. I have found that the thing about weight loss that is SO hard is that it is 3,000 decisions every day to make the ‘right’ choices. It’s literally waking up and eating a ‘good’ breakfast. Then drinking your water. . .then when snack or lunch time comes up making the ‘right’ decisions. Then ignoring whatever free food, fast food or cookies are placed in front of you at any gathering, function, office, etc.
I hope you will continue on your journey and know that the weight didn’t come on fast and it won’t come off fast. You have to work at it EVERY day, every hour. I try to take each meal at a time and make being conscious of what goes in my mouth and exercising a priority.
Now here’s the tough love, yes – it’s hot, everyone’s hot. . .BUT you don’t have to run to really burn calories, you can walk and/or do a video at your home (although that may be difficult with Rhystopher) =). . .When I started losing weight a few years back I did Tae-Bo videos (what I could of them) in my apt. 2 days a week until I felt strong enough to go to the gym, etc. . .What about using the university gym to walk on the treadmill at an incline or do the elliptical? I personally believe (and a lot of people will likely disagree) that it ALL starts with exercise. I find that when I exercise I feel AWFUL if I eat a bunch of crap. It’s not the other way around though – if you eat healthy or ‘good’ for a day, you don’t necessarily feel inclined to exercise.
So that’s my advice. Make exercise a priority. Don’t EVER say you’re failing. Stay positive and take it hour by hour. Sadly – NOTHING in the South makes it easy to eat well but trust me, if I can do it you most DEFINITELY CAN. =)
Sending you positive thoughts and good energy.
PS – I’ll be running tomorrow morning (before the hot comes out) and I’ll be sending happy thoughts that you’ll do the same
i like hillari’s comment on fat guy in a little coat haha. i understand the motivation prob in the morning. i hate running in the morning, i have to wait a couple hours after i wake up to finally feel like running. but sometimes i just make myself do it. especially if i do wake up, i might as well go run. but i do like running in the middle of the day (if its not too hot) or in the evening best. which means i havent done much running (and some other reasons too). you can always try running indoors if there is an indoor track on campus. but then you would have to go to campus. anyways good luck. get motivated and start doing it again. if you need some motivation i can come give you a good kick in the pants